And so the days go slipping by…

Another year nearly finished.  Strange to consider. 

... I’m not entirely sure of my reasons for continuing - even occasionally - to post to this blog.  I mean, there’s a lot that I could talk about, but won’t, either because it’s not interesting or too emotive or not suitable for all the potential readers of this page or too much of the same thing that I always talk about.  The Big Questions are all about things that are pretty much just mine to figure out and/or involve a chain of problems that have to be unpicked one at a time, in a very slow process.  I mean, my brain at any given moment is almost certainly going to be some variation on a Venn diagram of:

- missing of family and friends, both those that I haven’t talked with in months and those I have talked with in the last few days
- homesickness for Portland
- financial worries
- worries for the well-being of various people
- frustration with… well, mostly myself
- awareness of the unoriginality of 99.99% of my thoughts
- guilt for even feeling like I need to talk about any of this
- awareness of the “#firstworldproblems” nature of most of my concerns
- the everyday interactions & public face

... all of this sloshing around to some form of musical soundtrack, increasingly repetitive as my mental obsessing increases (right now, obnoxiously, thanks to work and my brain cycles, “Frosty the Snowman” is on heavy rotation).

::annoyed sigh:: In short, I bore myself AND see little likelihood of any of this changing significantly in the near future, for a whole host of reasons.  And I see little point in talking herein about the 1% of my mental obsessing that I would feel comfortable talking about freely.  So I guess the best thing for the tiny number of you who check here at all to do is to assume that, if you haven’t heard from me in a while and I haven’t posted anything here in a while, that the last conversation we had together was probably a pretty fair representation of my current mental/emotional state, and that any major changes will be communicated accordingly.  Since you are a reader of this blog, it’s also probably safe to assume that you are amongst the “family and friends” in the first bullet point up there, and that you are therefore in my thoughts.

Over and out.